Hey - A little late, but better late than never.

Newbie Joined: Jul 14, 2008 Posts: 18

Hello. I'm OneLife.
I'm 14, and I'm thinking above standard. At least for my age.

What happened to me for the past two years as I come to realize - only ruined my life and crashed them.
Next school year is about to begin. 9th grade. I'm not prepared.
Along the 8 school years I've gained many friends. Yet today I cant determite any of them as real friends.
I'm concidering ANY possible way to run away from this life. Move away. I really don't know how to tell my parents about this issue. After all, if I'll just drop it all on them ( http://theinfidelguy.com/ftopict-965.html ), it will shock them.

What I'm looking around these forums is mostly helping myself. My religious connection (I'm Jewish) is becoming weak within every day passing.

My main problem is starting over a new life. Moving away to some place new. Re-gaining my repoptation, and concidering about how am I going to gain my knowlage nor work.

..After all, there is just one life that we remember. One life to live. Mistakes to make and learn from.
I made my mistakes. Too many. I taught people the lessons, but didn't actaully cover up, or FIX what I've done. Now my parents think I might be brain damaged, which is the exact opposite of what I am.

Posted: Sun Aug 17, 2008 7:00 pm

Nah, you do not seem braindamaged at all, you seem very thoughtful.

Take your time and plan the next couple of months, make goals and objectives, and do not make hasty decisions or moves that might slow down your progress. It make take a while, but your plan will carry out...that is what counts. Be safe, and expect some bumps along the way...again, anticipate those bumps in order for you to cope with them without despair.

Newbie Joined: Jul 14, 2008 Posts: 18

I have made plans - plans for my next year of living in this world. Plans that are impossible to be done even when I try so hard.
I plan and plan and plan. I never do a thing.
Again, I'm too young to move out on my own to some place else. My parents are working and are related to my family. If I will talk to them about anything - I will close and open some doors in my life. That's a critical move.

Posted: Tue Aug 19, 2008 12:09 pm

Suck it up, make new friends, and deal with it. Sorry if that sounds harsh, but from what you've told me it seems that you are overdramaticizing your position. Tbh, this sounds like the same exact shit I went through when I was about to go to high school and trust me it's not as bad as you think.

I recommend that you:

-Join a club (I joined chess club lol it was great fun)
-Start exercising. Take 15-30 mins out of your day to lift some weights or go jogging.
-Talk to your current friends and if they don't accept you for who you are then fuck them. Trust me, you will find many new friends when you get into high school
-Remember that there is always a tomorrow and to stay positive.

It's not the end of the world and, no offense, but it seems like you are just being a stereotypical, angsty teenager.

Peace.

Newbie Joined: Jul 14, 2008 Posts: 18

Raskolnikov wrote:

Suck it up, make new friends, and deal with it. Sorry if that sounds harsh, but from what you've told me it seems that you are overdramaticizing your position. Tbh, this sounds like the same exact shit I went through when I was about to go to high school and trust me it's not as bad as you think.

I recommend that you:

-Join a club (I joined chess club lol it was great fun)
-Start exercising. Take 15-30 mins out of your day to lift some weights or go jogging.
-Talk to your current friends and if they don't accept you for who you are then fuck them. Trust me, you will find many new friends when you get into high school
-Remember that there is always a tomorrow and to stay positive.

It's not the end of the world and, no offense, but it seems like you are just being a stereotypical, angsty teenager.

Peace.

Regardless to what youre suggesting nor what I wrote here about myself, I'm not in a position to suck it up. I can but I don't want to. I'm not willing to go on for four more years with something that I hate and refuse to take part in.
I already am exercising. I'm in great shape. I weight just right and I'm tall.
Do you know how it works around here? 10 years old start smoking because it's "fun" or "relaxing". 14 years old drink (I did that too and stopped immidieatly), and im talking about the most of them - they drink so they'll look like adults or cover up theyre bad lives. I dont really care.

I dont have the time to explain now. I can just say that this isnt the place I want to live in and not the community I want to meet.

Posted: Wed Aug 20, 2008 12:08 am

Onelife wrote:

Raskolnikov wrote:

Suck it up, make new friends, and deal with it. Sorry if that sounds harsh, but from what you've told me it seems that you are overdramaticizing your position. Tbh, this sounds like the same exact shit I went through when I was about to go to high school and trust me it's not as bad as you think.

I recommend that you:

-Join a club (I joined chess club lol it was great fun)
-Start exercising. Take 15-30 mins out of your day to lift some weights or go jogging.
-Talk to your current friends and if they don't accept you for who you are then fuck them. Trust me, you will find many new friends when you get into high school
-Remember that there is always a tomorrow and to stay positive.

It's not the end of the world and, no offense, but it seems like you are just being a stereotypical, angsty teenager.

Peace.

Regardless to what youre suggesting nor what I wrote here about myself, I'm not in a position to suck it up.

Why? Are you being physically/sexually abused? Do you have some disfiguring, debilitating disease? Are you the rapper's daughter of Bret Hart?

Onelife wrote:

I can but I don't want to. I'm not willing to go on for four more years with something that I hate and refuse to take part in.

We all had to do it. Fucking deal with it. I didn't like going to school either, but I'm glad I didn't quit.

Onelife wrote:

Do you know how it works around here? 10 years old start smoking because it's "fun" or "relaxing". 14 years old drink (I did that too and stopped immidieatly), and im talking about the most of them - they drink so they'll look like adults or cover up theyre bad lives. I dont really care.

It was the same exact fucking thing at my high school, and you know how I dealt with it? I made friends that didn't do that stuff. But hey, I also had friends that did do that stuff (and they weren't half bad). I'll agree most of them are fucking delinquent assholes, but making a judgement about high school, without having any experience with it, is fucking inane.

Take it from the people that went through it already. IT'S NOT AS BAD AS YOU THINK IT IS.

Onelife wrote:

I dont have the time to explain now. I can just say that this isnt the place I want to live in and not the community I want to meet.

Try high school for a year and if you still think it is soooo unbearable then leave, you defeatist, pessimistic fuck.

Graduate Thinker Joined: Mar 26, 2008 Posts: 525

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It was the same exact fucking thing at my high school, and you know how I dealt with it? I made friends that didn't do that stuff. But hey, I also had friends that did do that stuff (and they weren't half bad). I'll agree most of them are fucking delinquent assholes, but making a judgement about high school, without having any experience with it, is fucking inane.

Take it from the people that went through it already. IT'S NOT AS BAD AS YOU THINK IT IS.

Raskolnikov, maybe it's different in Israel. Maybe his choice of friends is very small and maybe everyone drinks and smokes and leads shallow lives. But I don't know. All the same, Onelife, try out high school. There might be something different. And if anyone holds you back, overcome them. If you continue to despair, it means only one thing: that they beat you. My questions so far are:

What kind of parents do you have? Are they overbearing, very religious, or inflexible?

How many of your friends smoke and drink? Is it all of them? How many of the people you know at your school right now smoke and drink?

How tough is school in Israel, and how tough are the teachers?

The only thing that I can think of to tell you is to keep on fighting and don't let life beat you.

Newbie Joined: Jul 14, 2008 Posts: 18

Abused? I'm not the weak type of guy and I can deal with school and more than that but I want to work instead from now. Defeatist pessimist fuck? Thanks for the support, but I'm required to finish 12 school years by certain rules that one guy or a group or a few groups has made up for every living human that reaches a cerain age. I'm FAR from being a defeatist nor pessimist. I'm looking for a CHANGE.
I can quit it with or without concidering the results, but that will be stupid.
Parents? my parents love me, and they're always helpful. Theyre not the problem.
Friends? I've got loads of friends, and about five of them are the one I'm hanging out with the most. All of them drink except two of them. Yeah, when we go out two of them dont drink. None of my close friends smoke, but most teens I know around here do.

Teachers? Fuck them. Can't handle a class - quit teaching. Half of the teachers around out school pass a lesson with one or two people listening, no one is writing down anything and some of the students skipping it.

Maybe what I'm asking is if there another way to get knowlage...ALSO besides home school, thats not an option

Graduate Thinker Joined: Mar 26, 2008 Posts: 525

I can see how you are pissed off with your indifferent teachers and all the other students who don't give a shit. Over where I go to high school, though, there are options to take higher level classes called honors and advanced placement classes. There are better students in these classes, and the teachers are always better. The bad seed always take the basic classes. Are there any higher level classes in your high school, or does everyone have to take the same classes?

Newbie Joined: Jul 14, 2008 Posts: 18

I can't simply skip a specific class. That would require me to already know the material for the upcoming school year. I already do in math since I'm in exact science (We've been throught 10th grade material already). I'll just say it would be difficult to do it.
Also all I'm trying to say is that I don't like the people around here, which makes me hate this place even more. And once again that's exactly my problem, that I want to move away and maybe get a job. But I'm still young and missing a few school years that I have no idea how to complete on my own which is what I'm looking up to.

Graduate Thinker Joined: Mar 26, 2008 Posts: 525

I didn't mean skip the class. I mean do you have different levels of it? For example, in the US one can take regular biology or honors biology. You don't have take regular biology in order to take honors biology, but honors biology is more in depth than regular. However, you learn the basics in both classes. We have this same system for language, history, and sometimes math.

Newbie Joined: Jul 14, 2008 Posts: 18

Cygnus wrote:

I didn't mean skip the class. I mean do you have different levels of it? For example, in the US one can take regular biology or honors biology. You don't have take regular biology in order to take honors biology, but honors biology is more in depth than regular. However, you learn the basics in both classes. We have this same system for language, history, and sometimes math.

This such method only work for some professions. I'm referring to math, English, Arabic, biologic and phisics. I'm located in the top classes for each profession, yet it doesnt make much of a change.


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